Well, Melissa and I are doing it we are picking up stakes and heading west to envelope ourselves in the mountain life. We both accepted our jobs at the Aspen Valley Hospital. Melissa is going to start with 3x12 night shifts, but I will be working normal day hours. I am scared shitless and excited all at the same time. We are putting our house on the market in 2 weeks so we are in the process of packing things up for staging.
It is weird to think that in 5 weeks I will be at home in Colorado. I will be 2 miles from my favorite trout river in the whole wide world, the Frying Pan. It is weird to think that whenever I want to go fishing I can be there in just a few minutes. In the winter time we can ski at any of the 4 mountains in Aspen. The whole thing seems so surreal right now. I am stressed out getting ready for the house to go on the market. Without Melissa jamming on the packing I would be screwed but she is a rock and she is doing so much work that I feel a little guilty although I am doing a lot of behind the scenes stuff making calls and things like that.
When we get settled I plan on writing a huge post about the journey to Aspen, it is quite the story about how this all came about and the fate that brought us to this decision.
I will miss my close friends here at home and Minnesota will always be in my heart. My parents are buried here and I will miss them more when I am far away. I will miss my beloved Minnesota Twins and the special times that Melissa and I have at the 20 games that we go to a year. I will miss my friends at work. It is going to be odd to be starting over at 42, with a new job, a new house, no friends, and a new town. I am hoping that I can make some friends to fish with out there quickly.
I look forward to this adventure ahead of me and can't wait to see what the next few months have in store for us...
Sunday, March 3, 2013
I have a job interview in Aspen Colorado next Monday. It is exciting and scary all at the same time. Part of me wants the job really bad, especially since Melissa and I go to Colorado 3-4 times a year. But at the same time there are so many things here that I would miss. My friends, the north shore and Twins games. Melissa and I have a lot of freedom right now in our lives, we have no debt to speak of except the house and cars and we can come and go pretty much as we please. I am so torn as to what to do if perchance I get the position. Life is funny.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Normally I am pretty even keeled about things, but lately I have been having an incredibly hard time getting older and realizing there are things that I am never going to be able to do at the same level for one reason or another. Last night I watched a documentary on the skateboarding team the Bones Brigade, which I worshipped in my teens. It was a wonderful film and I highly recommend seeing it, but sadly it hit home in a way that I didn’t think it would, it made me sad and it made me feel old. I used to love to skateboard; I skated every day when I was in my teens, I loved the freedom of grabbing my board and heading out to ride it around town, meet up with friends and just enjoy the day.
Now I completely understand that you have to grow up, move on and be an adult. But I will be 42 this year and things like this are really starting to bother me. I miss my youth so much. I miss everything about it. It makes me sad to think that those things in my life are gone. Maybe I am being ridiculous but I can’t change the way I feel about certain things and sadly right or wrong this is one of the things that is starting to bug me. I am not sure what to do about it either, I know deep down I can’t really do anything about growing old. I don’t feel old, I feel good. But I am not stupid either. I can’t do things like I could when I was young. I can’t play with plastic army men for hours; I can’t skateboard for a whole summer and do nothing else. I can’t ask my parents for $20 that would last me for weeks. I have to work. I have to make a house payment. I know that I am blessed with a fantastic life. I have an awesome wife/best friend to follow me on the adventures we go on, I have an excellent job, we are healthy and happy and I know that, that should be enough.
But I still think about my youth and I miss it so.